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Mon Nov 23, 2009, 7:08 PM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Alter Bridge - "In Loving Memory"
  • Reading: Fell
I wanted to get that sad journal off my page, you know, so I don't overly depress people and all ._.

In other news, I'm sick with some kind of flu (headache, body aches, runny nose, the works), I've missed school now I gotta catch up, teach myself biology, get college applications together, and oh my god this headache is killing me.... I have to do a presentation this week too.... oh damndoodles...

Sketch Requests I'm workin' on (no more requests please this is enough x3; )

1. ~kagetora4ever [link]
2. ~Raven-Blood-13 [link]
3. *RawPoetry
4. ~tygerwolfe [link]
5. ~Fangeh lanky beast critter thing with horns XP
6. =CDarkheart [link]
7. ~Tac0Finch


:skullbones:Art for people!
=Supaslim - thankyou gift :3

:skullbones:To Do Listttt
:bulletgreen: New Anu reference
:bulletblack: Gunshot reference
:bulletgreen: New ID (I is not 16 ಠ_ಠ )


Loss

Fri Nov 6, 2009, 1:02 PM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Breaking Benjamin - "Anthem of the Angels&quo
  • Reading: Bakuman


You really don't know the pain of it until you experience it. No author's words, or scene in a movie, or artist's picture can truly tell you how much it hurts. You hear about it all the time, making it kind of trivial. It happens to everybody. Sometimes when people talk about it, you just think they're being over-dramatic, maybe you think they're being childish. But you really have no right to think you know anything about that pain until you feel it yourself...

I lost my bestest friend in the world. I lost everything good I ever had. I lost everything I ever thought a best friend should be, right down to the exact same interests and even saying the same random thing at the same time, always being on the same page and always agreeing on the same things. I lost my constant companion, my comfort when I needed it, I lost the one willing to listen to me whenever I was down, I lost the one who'd know exactly what to say to bring a smile to my face, I lost endless meaningful conversations and stories, I lost my most cherished memories of good times and laughs, I lost my dreams and my hopes and I lost everything I ever thought I should live for and I know it won't ever be the same again....... ;_;

This happens to people all the time... but its so overpowering.. it hurts so much.. I don't know how anyone can ever.. ever.. recover... I really don't know how anyone can...

I think its as painful as the death of a loved one.... just as painful... sometimes even more so... because you know they're out there still..... but they're not there anymore.... ;_;

I guess what I feel is heartbroken... but it feels even beyond that...

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So in light of all that, this is why I haven't drawn much or been active on dA really... it's just really, really, really hard to even cope with.....
I haven't drawn in a while but I want something to occupy my mind so that I'm not trapped in sadness all day... :c

I thought maybe some quick sketch requests could help me out. After all, if its something I'm drawing for others, I'd be motivated to do it, and it'd actually take my mind off the pain instead of me just diddling around in ps and not really getting anywhere.

So, of course it'd be nice to request things I can actually draw. Look at my gallery and that should be enough of a hint to you XP First five people to ask get the requests. They're sketch requests, so don't expect a super-spectacular finished image.

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3 New Albums - AiC BB 3DG

Tue Sep 29, 2009, 9:58 AM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Breaking Benjamin - "Anthem of the Angels&
  • Reading: Togari
  • Watching: Supernatural
:skullbones:s.t.a.m.p.s



Yeah, I actually buy albums instead of just downloading songs. I think, if you really appreciate music, you'll buy the CDs instead of just downloading.. plus it feels awesome to have all the neat album work and all

:iconimhappyplz:

So here's the contestants (scores out of 10):
:bulletpurple: Three Days Grace - Life Starts Now
:bulletblack: Breaking Benjamin - Dear Agony
:bulletblue: Alice In Chains - Black Gives way To Blue

Three Days Grace: Big disappointment. I'm a big fan of their debut album, I loved their raw sound. Sure, it wasn't all "razzle-dazzle" and somewhat repetitive, but that's why I liked it. Harsh raw angry angry guitar xD "Just Like You", "Home", "Burn", "Wake Up", all favs songs from their first. One-X is when they started making the transition to generic-sounding-sad-band.. "It's All Over", "Riot" and "Animal I Have Become" were their best songs off of that album, but after hearing the rest of it... it was getting sappier and sappier.. then this new album just proves my prediction. 3DG went exactly into the whole "LETS EXPERIMENT LOL" phase and just... killed their original sound... I no longer like them anymore. xc I'll always like 3DG music before LSN, just their new stuff I won't even bother keeping up with cause they betrayed meeeee lol
Score: 3 :|

Breaking Benjamin: How did I know good ol' BB wouldn't let me down? Not a bad album, its pretty good. They've gotten "sappier" or "softer sounding" since their album Phobia, but they haven't changed any more than that. They keep up with their original sound (haven't completely changed), still heavy guitar and whatnot.. it doesn't sound all poppy-happy-bouncy-generic like the new 3DG, and I applaud BB for keeping rock as rock B) hurhurrr Yay Ben Burnley scream!
Score: 7 =)

Alice In Chains: HOLY SHIT THIS ALBUM. KICKS. FUCKING. ASS. Totally everything I knew it'd be! The first song is pretty sick, "Check My Brain" is of course awesome, the third song is so chilling and then breaks out into this wicked guitar and its so badass!! X3 The whole album is amazing and I love how it sounds, totally reminiscent of original AiC (but of course a bit different, but I don't mind, it's still wicked). I wish there were more aggressive songs on that album, but even their more slower/softer songs sound amazing and hauntingly beautiful.... overall... AiC totally kicks fucking ass. I look forward to more albums from them :3 A concert would be even more wicked... T^T
Score: 9.5 :headbang:



I don't mean to sound too harsh.. or maybe I do lol XD Well it's just my opinion, I'm open to see how others think of these albums :3 If you have these albums, what do you think of them?

I've been busy with schoolwork and my job and running around with my head cut off.. I plan to be more active on dA again.. once I get my life back together.. I'm not doing too well right now, I'm really in a bad place.. I just hope I can rise above it and that things'll be better for all people involved in this confusion... *sigh* And I still miss my best friend terribly... ;_;

Sorry if I haven't replied to notes/comments, I will try to get to them, I usually read all of them, I sometimes forget to reply though X_X If I haven't replied to a question of yours in a while, just drop a comment in this journal and I'll be sure to reply!



:skullbones:Art for people!
=Supaslim - thankyou gift :3

:skullbones:To Do Listttt
:bulletgreen: New Anu reference
:bulletblack: Gunshot reference
:bulletgreen: New ID (I is not 16 ಠ_ಠ )


Fan EXPO Tor

Tue Sep 1, 2009, 5:02 PM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Alter Bridge - "Break Me Down"
  • Reading: "Warriors: Into The Wild" by Erin Hunter
  • Watching: Zoids Genesis <33
:skullbones:s.t.a.m.p.s ... :skullbones:r.i.o.t.t.h.e.o.r.y


So I went to Fan EXPO last Saturday, it was pretty cool. Saw lots of Star Wars people (not a big fan) and anime / naruto people (not a fan of those either XD; ). But I DID see something awesome. TIGER OF THE WINNNDDDD!!!!!! XD At least I'm pretty sure. I loved watching Monster Rancher as a kid, Tiger was always my favourite X3 The costume the person had was so cool, I mean they could stand on all fours and the jaw moved. I wanted to hug it T^T
My sis dressed up as Pyramid Head from Silent Hill, you guys should take a look: [link] [link] [link] [link]
I made the sword! X3 Well, I started construction of it, painted it with the superb help of ~Radioactive-Insanity. Otherwise, if I hadn't started it we wouldn'ta had a great knife for Pyramid Head T^T HE NEEDS HIS GREAT KNIFE
Too bad there wasn't much other Silent Hill peoples there :c We found one nurse though, and two other pyramid heads (but not nearly as detailed as ours... at least theirs didn't have a big pole sticking out of it cause the helmet was too heavy T^T )
Durp. I bought a Verdugo from RE4 while I was there (been looking for one of those and a Regenerator/Iron Maiden for agessss) and I saw a King Ghidorah action figure too but I didn't get it xc
Speaking of King Ghidorah! X3 ~ammmp got me a King Ghidorah pluishie! X3 It's awesome! I wuvs it :3 and I wuvs him <33 heheh X3
Oh! There was also a bunch of comic artists there, so I got a sketch from the author of The Abominable Charles Christopher... well I didn't get it, ~Radioactive-Insanity did XD I had to ask for her cause she was soooo scared XP D'awwwww lol XD We gots a Townsend! :3

So, did anyone reading this go to fan expo? Maybe you saw me :o


I've been watching the subbed version of ZOIDS: Genesis recently, I love the music, I love the Murasame Liger X3 And the Sword Wolf and the Lance Stag. They're all pretty damn cool X3 I wish I had models of them... goshdarn they should have all the zoids shows dubbed and played in North America T^T I loved ZNC when it was on, and more zoids shows would have been wicked... :c more models too T^T

And I wanted to apologize for not responding to comments and whatnot all too recently, I've had other things on my mind ( not feeling too well ) so in the meantime I thankyou for all your comments and favs and support :3 I read all my comments even if I don't reply, which normally I do try and reply to all of them x];



:skullbones:Art for people!
~niikoru - Geare - colouring
=Supaslim - thankyou gift :3


Questionnn! +tagged

Thu Jul 9, 2009, 6:38 PM
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: Three Days Grace - "One-X"
  • Reading: Gun Show comic
  • Watching: I Am Ledgend comics thingers
  • Playing: Zoids! X3
  • Eating: Carrot cake
  • Drinking: Tea
:skullbones:s.t.a.m.p.s ... :skullbones:r.i.o.t.t.h.e.o.r.y


I have a retarded question! :iconhappyeightplz:

You know those art thingies where you can draw and other people on the internet can draw and you can draw on the same canvas? Whatever those things are called I want to know about em or where I can find a good one? T^T;; heeeh I know this is probably a "common-knowledge" kinda thing but when I tried looking one up it had this weird log-in stuff and rules and I was like WHAAAT IS THIISSSS
:iconemospiderman2plz: FFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
why can't it just be simple? T^T
Soooo if anyone can shed some light for this unenlightened chap here... :c


EDIT: =Supaslim animated meh avvie! X3 Many thanks to her! She's awesome X3 :glomp: GO VISIT HER GALLERY NAOW

hmm I wanted a new avvie so I made this Anu-plushie one. I suck at shading, can you tell? XD I think it's decent though, seeing as I'm inexperienced with peexelz. I wanted to animate it kinda, like with an ear twitch or tail-wag or eye blink or something but I suck at that so I couldn't do it XD ah well maybe I'll learn someday... *overly sparkley anime eyes* @v@
Do you think this new avatar is okee dokee or do ya think the biohazard was better? I mean... come on... blood spatter biohazard... I liked that one T^T but now its old :C *big frown* and replaced with TEH CUTENESS *explodedededed*


AND THEN


I was tagged a while back by *FrenzyWolf so I decided it was due time to... be tagged. ಠ_ಠ DANANANANA GOGO BATMANRANGERS *explodes*

These are the rules:
1. Post the rules.
2. Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves

OK HERE WE GO ARE YOU READY FOR THIS?!?!! *que crazy music* well sheesh its pretty open-ended, I dunno what to write T^T well ok random shtuff...

1. To people I don't know I appear really freakin' shy or just scary, but meanwhile once I get to know people I'm a hyper happyhappyEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE random person :3 heeeee
2. I have "degenerative disc disease" in mah lower back. BACK PAIN ALL THE TIME, BIZNATCHES. When I stand for more than two minutes = pain. :3
3. I fuckin' love zoids (yay for zoid models! YAY FOR ZOIDS VIDEO GAME X3 (ee thankyou ~ammmp!!))
4. I'm a tomboy, I love videogames and I play hockey and I hate pink and I love nature and camping and catching snakes and frogs and bats are cool etc etc :3
5. uuuh I trapped a fruitfly in a cup on my desk two hours ago and it's still there cause I'm too lazy to do anything about it! *durr!*
6. uummm I have a scar on mah nose?
7. I hate "Twilight". With a passion. :3
8. I quote internets all the time, movies, inside-jokes, comics and the like. OI NUTTA


And that's it.
:iconimhappyplz:



:skullbones:Art for people!
=kodriak - birthdaayyyyy >:3
~niikoru - geare - got teh sketch, workin on da lineart!
and the person who bought me the subscription that I never thanked properly T^T *headdesk* gah I was stressed atm and I didn't even notice... >_<;;;


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