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Loss

Fri Nov 6, 2009, 1:02 PM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Breaking Benjamin - "Anthem of the Angels&quo
  • Reading: Bakuman


You really don't know the pain of it until you experience it. No author's words, or scene in a movie, or artist's picture can truly tell you how much it hurts. You hear about it all the time, making it kind of trivial. It happens to everybody. Sometimes when people talk about it, you just think they're being over-dramatic, maybe you think they're being childish. But you really have no right to think you know anything about that pain until you feel it yourself...

I lost my bestest friend in the world. I lost everything good I ever had. I lost everything I ever thought a best friend should be, right down to the exact same interests and even saying the same random thing at the same time, always being on the same page and always agreeing on the same things. I lost my constant companion, my comfort when I needed it, I lost the one willing to listen to me whenever I was down, I lost the one who'd know exactly what to say to bring a smile to my face, I lost endless meaningful conversations and stories, I lost my most cherished memories of good times and laughs, I lost my dreams and my hopes and I lost everything I ever thought I should live for and I know it won't ever be the same again....... ;_;

This happens to people all the time... but its so overpowering.. it hurts so much.. I don't know how anyone can ever.. ever.. recover... I really don't know how anyone can...

I think its as painful as the death of a loved one.... just as painful... sometimes even more so... because you know they're out there still..... but they're not there anymore.... ;_;

I guess what I feel is heartbroken... but it feels even beyond that...

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So in light of all that, this is why I haven't drawn much or been active on dA really... it's just really, really, really hard to even cope with.....
I haven't drawn in a while but I want something to occupy my mind so that I'm not trapped in sadness all day... :c

I thought maybe some quick sketch requests could help me out. After all, if its something I'm drawing for others, I'd be motivated to do it, and it'd actually take my mind off the pain instead of me just diddling around in ps and not really getting anywhere.

So, of course it'd be nice to request things I can actually draw. Look at my gallery and that should be enough of a hint to you XP First five people to ask get the requests. They're sketch requests, so don't expect a super-spectacular finished image.

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~happymegs81 Nov 9, 2009, 7:36:55 PM
Thanks for the fave!

Your wolf drawings look really cool!

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=Ragthorn Nov 6, 2009, 12:27:43 PM
RARW!

* random page stalk *

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~Anuwolf Nov 7, 2009, 8:14:20 PM
GWAH :icongwahplz:

ITS A NINJAH! :ninja:

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~Reyna-Love Oct 30, 2009, 8:26:15 PM
Your art is really good!

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~Anuwolf Nov 1, 2009, 4:21:52 PM
Thanks! :]

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~Fluffball264 Oct 30, 2009, 3:05:13 PM
Gosh it's been years since I found your art when I first joined, and I just found it again.

It's only got more epic since then.

Just needed saying..
^^

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~Anuwolf Nov 1, 2009, 4:21:33 PM
Oh yeah? I thought I recognized your username from somewhere :ninja:

b'aww thankee thankee X];

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~Fluffball264 Nov 5, 2009, 11:04:58 AM
Really? wow, it muat of been a while back :P

And no problem ^^

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~ammmp Oct 22, 2009, 9:35:20 AM
I miss you... :c

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~ObsidianHyena Oct 15, 2009, 7:16:07 PM
lmao you have like almost 50 000 pageviews and I have 3000 and PEOPLE ARE DOING FANART OF YOUR CHARACTERS.
LOLOLOLOL MASTER OF THE THERIANS!
:iconstarwolfplz: WOOF!
:iconlalaplz:looooOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooLL!!

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~Anuwolf Nov 1, 2009, 4:20:30 PM
UM ONLY SOMETIMES

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Not therian T^T Shaddup lala! D:<

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*Ichi-Ichiko Oct 13, 2009, 11:12:39 PM
Your art makes me happy. c: <3

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~Anuwolf Nov 1, 2009, 4:19:45 PM
coolios x3

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"I divided 3 by 776 and I got... 13 isn't that weird?!" - dahahaha Green Day XD
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~ammmp Oct 11, 2009, 2:19:23 PM
*sigh*... I miss you..

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I have to kill fast but bullets too slow!
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~Anuwolf Oct 13, 2009, 4:15:59 PM
I miss you so much more ;_;

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